Kia

 

O' sweet child of mine, How to start Mommy`s note? 

Days and nights I have waited for you, to hold you, to hug you, to make you smile

The surprise you gave me when I fainted on my way back home, I never realised that I would be this lucky to have you 

Those endless nights of cravings, mood swings and self-questioning, I never thought I am gonna get a treasure like you

When people throw sloppy comments on you gonna be a boy, I fought with them in anger as I know from my deep heart that you are my Lil girl

Every day and night I prayed that you are going to be my lovely little girl, so much that Mom and Dad didn't even search for any other names when we found Kiara

People say that you change a lot when you have a child, little that I realise that you had changed me to a whole new person

A person whom I never realised that existed inside me, A human so full of love which I have never felt before

The day when I felt your movement for the first time, those tiny legs rolling inside me like how Scooby doo runs 

Those quarterly check ups and blood tests, for a person who is extremely scared of needles and doctors I felt so much relief each time the doctor says the baby is fine

Those 40 hours of intense pain and cries, finally we saw your face-Our Kiara`s chubby face

My child, showed me how much pain I can take - bring out the warrior in me

You made me a Mother, Ma, Mom, AMMA!!

There were nights you hesitated to sleep, you were coping up with the new world

Mom and Dad took turns to put you back to sleep, as you just kept looking at us with your button-like eyes

I know I haven't been a perfect mom for you, but I tried to be the best mom - like every other mom out there

For a person who has been lonely the whole time, even when I am surrounded by so many people

The first time I felt that I am not alone anymore, you are my wonderful companion

No one has ever been so excited to see me coming back home, No  one has ever jumped with giggles and claps when I stepped out of my room

My heart elates each time you crawl next to me and rest your head on my lap

No one has ever burst out of laughter for the goofiest things I do and peeped in my room to wait for my glance back

I am sorry from the bottom of my heart when I yelled at you, as I was exhausted and mentally tired to play with you 

I know I can't hold you tight and not let you free - for which you will hate me forever

I will nurture you, love you and protect you till my last breath and beyond

For once and for all, you are my star

I love you 3000!!